Getting used to this…

I’m having a ball getting used to how I am now. I feel like more of the old me is coming back but now I appreciate things more. I used to feel fat sometimes when I was younger. Now I realized that I wasn’t, it was just that society imposed these thoughts on women if we weren’t a size 4. So now I take my weight loss successes and enjoy them. I’m beginning to enjoy clothes shopping again. My confidence level is through the roof now too.

I posted a video on FB from last year. I was trying the “Go live” feature. In this video you can really see the difference in my face. It was full, round and double chin was strong. I had so many people coming up to me the next day saying that they didn’t realize how big the change in me was until they saw that video. They pretty much saw me everyday so the change wasn’t that evident.  I then would tell them the story of how I was washing my face and felt a bump on my jawline. I thought “omg is it a tumor?!” (side note: a friend of mine had a lump on his jawline and it turned out to be cancerous so that’s why I thought that).  Then I realized, nope, it’s just my jawbone, the double chin seemed to disappear overnight. I’m still a little freaked out when I feel that curve under my jawline.

I had another “didn’t recognize you” moment this week. I went to a meeting this week and saw someone who’s in the group who I hadn’t seen in about a month and a half. After the meeting I went over to say hi. He told me that when he first saw me walk in, he was wondering who I was. It wasn’t until after he saw my mom behind me that it hit him who I was. I told him that I saw the double take look on his face and was wondering what that was all about. We had a good laugh about it.

I did have someone say that they’re shocked that I talk about my weight loss so openly. I snapchat about it all the time. I say my weight..out loud. I am not embarrassed about it. It’s a fact and I’m proud of how far I’ve come. As a society, we’re taught that a lady never talks about her weight. Really?! I’ve learned not to be embarrassed about stuff like that. When we talk about things, sometimes people will tell you their experiences or have questions if they’re going through it too. We learn from each other. I’ve had people come up and ask about keto. If they’re interested, I point them to where I learned about it. I’ve also had some people give me ideas on how to better my keto recipes. It’s all about learning from each other and supporting each other.

Ok, time for the weigh in. I lost 1 pound this week but I have noticed a difference in my clothes. Everything fits looser. I bought a few shirts last week and a couple are too big already. Good thing they were only $5 each.  So I will take that 1 pound difference and take joy in the fact that physically I see a change for the better.

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 198

Total lost: 44 pounds!!

 

Hitting goals like a BOSS!

My mini monthly goal was to hit 210 by the end of March 31st and I hit that on March 21st. BAM! That’s when I got super excited. I know this Low Carb is working but it really hit me that I’m succeeding at it and can do it. I’ve always heard of people on lc, atkins, keto and they always talk about how hard it is and they fall off the wagon. Surprisingly it really hasn’t been that hard for me. Yes, I miss bread but the rewards are totally worth it. Plus that pain that comes with eating flour keeps me from eating bread. I can see myself doing this long term even after I hit my goals. I do think I was at that point in my life where I had to make a life change. I had hit bottom and now I’m working my way back up to where I want to be.

So now my next goal is 199. I haven’t been under 200 since I was pregnant with my daughter, who’s 13 now. 199 is my 1st major goal for me and now it’s my April goal.  I didn’t think I would get to 199 until after summer, to be honest. Now it’s within sight and it’s really motivating me to keep at it!!

My non scale victory for the week was shopping. I have these 3 pairs of yoga capri pants that I’ve had for a few years that are to the point where they fall off of me. I have to hold onto the waistband when I walk because they’ll fall. Going upstairs holding a laundry basket is a challenge wearing these pants. So I went and bought me a pair of athleisure capri pants in a 2x but they were from the regular section, not the plus size section. So these are cut smaller than the plus version. I also bought some underwear (also regualr sizing, not plus sizing) because mine were too big and baggy. I got home and tried both on and they actually fit! Not only that, I realized I could go down a size in both. So I went the next day and bought the pants in an XL and they did fit!!!  I haven’t bought from the regular size section in years!!  Wow….just wow.

I am so feeling like Wonder Woman this week. I needed this boost in motivation. Onward to my next goal!!

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 209

Total lost: 33 lbs!!!!

 

Lesson for this week: Gluten kicks my ass

So doing this WOE (way of eating) has opened my eyes to a lot of things. One of which is that my body is so much better off when I cut out flour. When deciding on whether to eat something, I ask myself  “is there any flour in this?”. If the answer is NO, then game on!! Flour = carbs. Simple and easy to remember and for me to do. So what some people in my Facebook low carb group do is scrape off the toppings off a regular pizza and eat the toppings. Sounds good. Well I learned this past week not to do that.

My hubby was the first to suggest that I may be gluten intolerant. Ok… maybe. Little backstory here: I have always had stomach issues. Always. As a little kid even. My parents took me to so many doctors and were so desperate to help me out that they took me to a “witch doctor” to help me out. Her treatment didn’t help. So I grew up trying to cope with my stomach issues. Went to college and learned to deal with it on my own. Which sucked because I wouldn’t do certain activities. If there wasn’t a restroom nearby, I wasn’t doing it. And I hated huge events because that meant lines and usually the urge would hit me and I had to go NOW.

As an adult I would go to a different doctor every few years and they would run every test under the sun. Some of those are not at all fun, pretty invasive actually. In the end I would be told “negative, there’s nothing wrong with you”. It was frustrating. When I got with my hubby, he would insist on me going to different doctors to see if they could help me. So more drs and more tests. And once again “Negative, nothing is wrong with you”. Even my hubby was getting frustrated with the doctors.  I finally found a dr who helped me somewhat. I had what I called “an endo attack” during my appointment with him. In addition to my stomach issues, I also suffer from endometriosis. And when my endo would flare up, it would make my stomach issues worse. I would have endo attacks that would last hours and I’d be stuck in the bathroom the whole time. I even passed out once from the pain. So you understand why I would try to stay home “just in case”.  Anyway, the doctor was running behind and came in to apologize and told us that he would definitely see us. After he left, I started bloating up and running to the bathroom. I think it was after my 4th trip to the bathroom, he ran into me in the hallway and asked what was wrong. That’s when he saw my stomach and gasped. I was considerably much “bigger”than when he last saw me. These endo attacks would always bloat me up to the point where I looked pregnant. I explained what was happening and he swore that he would figure it out. I had all the usual tests and he found nothing. He put me on every antibiotic he could to get rid of the bad bacteria and that helped somewhat. I wasn’t as bad as I used to be but it still was an issue. I was happy just for that. It was some improvement. I had another dr who prescribed a medication that I would take with meals that would help lessen the bathroom time. It was a life changer but I hated being on meds and sometimes I would forget to take the pills with me.

Back to my original thought of this post: hubby suspected I was gluten intolerant. I was open to it but didn’t give it much thought because that was part of what all those tests were for. And negative. But every time I ate flour, BAM!! I was sick again. So last week we went out to run errands and we decided to stop by a pizza place for some wings, pizza and stuffed mushrooms. I knew that they didn’t coat their wings in flour. And the stuffed mushrooms had no flour in it either. I scraped the toppings off my pizza because that’s when I’ve heard you can do and still be low carb. Within a few minutes of leaving the restaurant, I was sick. I got home and was sick for hours, running to the restroom. I went online and learned that if you do have a gluten allergy, you can get cross contamination by scraping off the toppings off a regular pizza. Ooooohhhh. Didn’t know that. Now I do.

So now, no more doing that. I need to be careful with gluten cross contamination because I don’t want to go through that again. Lesson learned.

Other than that, it was a good week. My mini goal is 210 by the end of the month. My new bigger goal is 199. That will put me under 200. It’s been 14 yrs since I’ve been there. Only 14 more lbs to go!!! Yes!!!!

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 213

Total lost: 29 lbs.

New goal: 199

1st major goal = DONE!

This past week I hit my first major goal: 215. That’s right, 215. I still can’t believe that I hit that so fast. A little over 2 months and I lost 27 lbs. It’s really motivating me to keep going and see where this takes me. My next major goal is 199 or as they call it in my group “onehundredland”. I haven’t been under 200 in what seems like ages. My daughter is 13 so I figure at least 13 yrs.

I’m going on a vacation in about 3 months. I’m seeing my nieces. One is graduating High School so I’m excited to see that. They haven’t seen me thin either so that also is motivating me. I want them to proud of their Tia, who tells them constantly “you have it in you to do amazing things”. I’m going to show everyone personally that I’m walking the talk.

So my reward for hitting my major goal is Ulta. I LOVE makeup. I mean LOVE!! I never used to but once I hit menopause, I got “girly”.  Which is hilarious because all my life I was more tomboy than girly. Now I’m asking people “girl, what highlighter do you have on because it is poppin’?”. Really, I do. Just asked someone yesterday that question. So I got the Anastasia Modern Renaissance palette, Becca highlighter in Opal, Elf highlighter in Moonlight Pearls and 5 lipsticks (Tarte, Makeup Revolution, Ulta lip stain, Too Faced and Elf). Lipstick is my crack. Good thing there are no carbs in makeup. LOL

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 215

Total weight lost: 27 lbs

I actually played sports today…what?!

I was a huge sporty gal. I played all the sports until I blew out both my knees in my teen years. But I still was active. I loved to be active. In college, I loved going to the gym on campus and rollerblading with my friends.

Once I had kids, that all stopped. Didn’t have the time or money…or energy. But today, I went out with my husband and daughter to the park. Daughter is trying out for softball. I used to play and Hubby used to coach so we were teaching her the basics. She was actually pretty good. She seems to be a natural. After practice, I did some conditioning exercises with her and did better than her at it. LOL

We were out there for an hour and I kept up. I can’t believe that. I couldn’t have done that at the beginning of the year.

I’m pretty damn happy about that.

new discoveries this week (yea, baby!!!)

I realized that my clothes are getting really baggy but I don’t want to go buy new clothes yet. I wear these polo shirts for work and the inside seam on the arm band is really starting to rub the inside of my arm raw. Also, the outside seam on some pants is rubbing the outer thigh raw too. Interesting set of problems. LOL I’m just happy that the inside thigh on my jeans isn’t tearing as fast as it used too. I keep telling myself that hopefully soon I won’t have that issue anymore. Nobody tells you that fat thighs destroys the inside of your jeans from all that rubbing.

I have a close friend at work who’s anti-diet. She really hates them. A lot. I know she doesn’t agree with me changing my eating habits but this week she really looked at me and said “girl, you’re looking really really good. Keep up what you’re doing, it’s working”. That made my week!! Ever since that day, she hasn’t said anything negative about my WOE (way of eating).

We had a cookout at work and our boss used to be a chef. His food is amazing. I had a hotdog (minus bun) with mustard and relish. I also had a protein burger with all the fixings. Delish. I was kinda bummed about not having his famous baked beans because they are amazing but that’s ok. I stuck to my woe and it paid off.

Why? Because I lost a couple more pounds according to the scale and my total amount lost is 25 lbs. I’m at 217. Only 2 more pounds until I hit 215 which is a reward goal for me. I’m thinking a trip to Ulta for a highlighter is in order. Don’t know when that will be because we all know how long it sometimes takes to lose those stubborn pounds. But I’m ok with that because it took awhile to put this weight on so I know it will take time to take the weight off.

So all in all, it was a great week for my woe.

Current weight: 217

Starting weight: 242

Total lost: 25!!!

2 month check in. drum roll please…

ok, 2 months since I started on 1-1-17. Starting weight is 242. Now I’m at 219. 23 pounds gone. So much more energy, like it’s life changing. The fogginess is lifting from my brain. Stomach issues have pretty much gone away. Skin is clearer, nails are getting stronger. My hair feels better. Double chin is almost gone. Not snoring like I used to. I can cross my legs now…haven’t done that in forever. My leg, back and foot pain is 100% gone. Wow.

I like these benefits.  Onto month 3. Goal is 215 by the end of March. If I hit 210, I get to treat myself to something special at Ulta.

Let’s do this!!!

about ‘effin time!!

I did it. I hit 220. That one pound took forever! But I was ok with waiting because my body felt better than ever.

I tried something different this weekend. I decided to do a test and try to omit the fake sugars (and excess real sugar) out of my eating habits. Except for my coffee, I need that. I hate the taste of coffee but my dr recommended my drinking coffee to help with my sleepiness. He had me on some pills that were amazing! Then Britney Spears had that breakdown (the umbrella/shaving head incident) and I found out she was on what I was taking. I asked my doc about it and decided that I didn’t want to be on something so hardcore. So that’s when I started drinking coffee.  I’ve tried to make it in so many different ways to keep within this WOE (way of eating) but I hated the results. I hated all the different fake sweeteners that are out there. I can taste the chemicals in them. No joke. What I ended up doing was to add the heavy whipping cream for some fat and put in a very small amount of my hot cocoa mix. I call it my “Chocfee”. It makes coffee doable for me.  So my coffee is the one place where I let myself have some “bad sugar”.

Other than the coffee, I decided to cut out the fake sugars. Even sugar alcohols. In this low carb WOE, you take your carb count and subtract fiber and sugar alcohols to get your net carb count. That helps when you want to add sweet stuff (aka candy) to your diet. But for some, sugar alcohol can make you stall. I think that’s what was going on with me. I found these amazing Atkins Peanut Butter Bars that tasted like my Reese’s Peanut Butter cups. Man I miss Reese’s. Anyway, these bars taste so good and I didn’t get that chemical-y aftertaste that fake sugar gives me. Plus I only eat half a bar because it’s pretty big. Bad thing is that it has sugar alcohol. So I cut those out along with some other stuff, including my “lemonade” mix that I was drinking. It’s strictly water with lemon now.

1 day. It took 1 day to see progress. I’m gonna keep doing this for a few more days. I’m most likely going to keep the sugar alcohols out. I may do the reward system: if I do good, I can reward myself with a peanut butter bar on Friday.

Next mini goal is 215. Giving myself until end of March to do that. If I can hit 210 by then, then I’ll treat myself to something really special at Ulta.

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 220

Total lost: 22

As my daughter would say: YAAAASSSSS!!!!!!

What did I do when stress put me to the test?

It’s so easy to say “I’m going to change my habits and do this”. It’s all well meaning. Yet the big test is when life slaps you in the face and says “well how about when I throw this at you?”. I am a stress eater. Comfort food was truly that: comfort for my soul. I’ve been doing so well on this woe (way of eating). Haven’t really been tempted and so proud of that. Last week, my mom ended back in the hospital. Now first know that my mother truly is my best friend (besides my husband). She was a strict mother but a fair one. I never went through that period where I hated my mom. We truly have confided in each other over everything. I know that I’m her best friend as well. When she had her stroke back in Oct 2015, it changed everything but she survived and that was the important part. She has worked hard in her recovery and has amazed and inspired us all. I became the “mom”. I make sure she takes her med, gets to her dr appt’s., I deal with everything medical to make sure that she’s getting the best care. She has told me repeatedly that she’s feels bad that I have to deal with all this. I tell her that I love doing it for her. I would rather be in this situation, taking care of her, than not doing it because she’s gone. Not once have I seen her as a burden, as she feels like she is. She has always had my back and now I get to repay her for everything she has done for me, with love.

Anyway, she’s finally gotten to the point where all her doctors are happy with her progress. Everything has settled down and now we’re scheduling appts for 3-6 months out, instead of “we’ll see you in a month”. So when we thought she had another stroke, last week, she was so scared. She told me “I don’t mind being like this, but I don’t want to go back to where I was after my last stroke”.  She stayed overnight and they ran tons of tests to rule a stroke and mini-stroke out. I was so worried because she was worried. Not because of having to “go back” (we got this down if we had too), but because I could see the fear in her eyes. Seeing the strongest person I know go through something like that was life changing.

So I could have gone down to the cafeteria and gotten some pizza or hamburgers. I could have because that hospital has some great food. But I didn’t. Not even tempted. Why? Because my mom needs me to be healthy so I can take care of her. That’s why. I had my lowcarb protein bar and I ate that. When I went home to sleep I made me some eggs and sausage so I would have energy to deal with whatever came our way. I rose up to the challenge and faced it head on. No cheating allowed. I deserve better.

We got good news the next days. No stroke or mini-stroke. They think she had a complex migraine which can mimic signs of a stroke. We saw her neurologist yesterday and he is very pleased with her progress. Plus her aneurysm has not gotten bigger so yay!! We went out to Olive Garden to celebrate afterwards. I did not have any bread, didn’t even get tempted by it. I had lots of salad and this chicken stuffed with cheese. Totally within my food woe.

So now I feel better knowing that I wasn’t tempted to stress eat. I really am happy that I didn’t give in and that I did what was best for me.

…waiting…waiting..waiting..

That last pound is taking it sweet time. I have 1 more pound to lose before I hit my 1st mini-goal of 220. I have definitely stalled. I’m gonna try tweaking my low carb diet and see if that helps. But I am definitely not tempted to cheat. Why? Because this happens from time to time. I need to stick with it and eventually my body will start losing again.

I realize that my mental state is better too. I feel better mentally and my thinking is so much clearer. I used to constantly have these “blond moments” or “d’oh” episodes. It got to the point that if I discovered something or was confused by something I would give it a few minutes. I would eventually get it then. Those episodes were getting worse and worse. I consider myself an intelligent woman. I take pride in being smart. So when that started happening, I was getting worried. Now however, those moments are going away. We have this new system at work and no instructions on how to use it. I started messing with it trying to teach myself how to use it. I figured out some basics but it was still hard to keep that info in my head. I would go back to that system and it would take a few attempts for me to remember how to do it. These past 2 weeks, I’ve got it. I know how to get in, maneuver my way around and I figured out how to make it easier to navigate. I’ve become the go-to person for dealing with this system and I love that my brain isn’t foggy anymore.  It really helps a lot when your mind is clear.

I am loving the benefits of this low carb woe (way of eating) has brought forth. It’s just not about losing weight anymore. It’s about improving my quality of life at this point. I am so loving my life now!!