Ah I’ve missed you keto flu…NOT!

Yes, keto flu is real and it came back. Guess that’s what happens when you throw yourself out of ketosis and go back into keto life. It lasted for almost a week and I stored that memory to remind me if I ever think of cheating again.  I was reading how some people have a cheat day every couple of weeks and I can’t understand that. I could not go through keto flu that often. I figure every few months, maybe, but not every couple weeks. Let’s be honest: now that I’ve tasted how good gluten free pizza can be, I’m gonna have some every few months. Maybe as a reward for hitting major milestones? We’ll see.

So as I last wrote, I’ve been stalled. This seems to be a pattern. Good for about 3 weeks, stalled for 2-3 weeks. I take it back to basics and I start losing again. So this past week has been back to basics, keeping it really simple. Can I just say how much I love hard boiled eggs?! Portable and so keto friendly!

I started Monday at 199 and on Wednesday hit 195. That’s great since my goal for the end of June was 195. Then I got devastating news on Thursday morning. My beloved uncle passed away. He’s only a few years older than me. He was killed in a car accident instantly. Luckily, the kids and his wife were not in the car with him but the kids did see it happen in the rearview mirror and ran to their dad. They got to him first. My heart hurts to think of what they went through.

As life happens, my uncle and I weren’t as close now as we used to be. Like I said, we’re not that far in age. My mom is his oldest sister and helped raise him. After their mother died, she became his honorary mom. My mother is having a hard time processing this, she said it’s like having a child pass away (She still has a brain aneurysm so we have to make sure this stress doesn’t make that worse). My childhood was filled with hanging out with my 3 young uncles and bugging them. They were so good at letting their young niece hang out with them. Back then I looked at them more like brothers than uncles.

As we got older, I kinda veered away from them, our lives became so different.  They got married young, had kids and started a business. I became the niece who went to college and was so independent and determined to remain single. They got married in their early 20’s and I got married at 35 so we were definitely on different life tracks. They were still there if I needed them and in the past couple of years, we’ve talked more since they worry about my mom and they call me to see if I need them.  We saw each other at family bdays, holidays and such. But the whole family dynamic is so different now ever since my grandma passed. No more hanging out and them playing Pink Floyd’s “The Wall” for me to educate me on the importance of their music.

My uncle was a great man. He and my other uncle have built a great company and that work has allowed them to do so much for others. Very caring, generous and a great listener and talker. I have never heard anyone say anything bad about my uncle. Great testament to his life and I will strive to be more like him in that aspect of being a good humanitarian.

I guess I’m saying that I’m numb. We always hear how life can change just like that but this really drove it home for all of us. Please hug your family and friends and say “I love you” more often. My family never used to say that but for about the past 10 yrs we say goodbye and “Love you” more often without embarrassment. I have peace knowing that my last words to my uncle were “Love you Tio”.

Now we start the part of our lives without him. Doesn’t matter if we’re ready or not, we have to start.

Current weight: 195

Starting weight: 242

Total lost: 47 lbs….and a huge piece of my heart

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