Getting used to this…

I’m having a ball getting used to how I am now. I feel like more of the old me is coming back but now I appreciate things more. I used to feel fat sometimes when I was younger. Now I realized that I wasn’t, it was just that society imposed these thoughts on women if we weren’t a size 4. So now I take my weight loss successes and enjoy them. I’m beginning to enjoy clothes shopping again. My confidence level is through the roof now too.

I posted a video on FB from last year. I was trying the “Go live” feature. In this video you can really see the difference in my face. It was full, round and double chin was strong. I had so many people coming up to me the next day saying that they didn’t realize how big the change in me was until they saw that video. They pretty much saw me everyday so the change wasn’t that evident.  I then would tell them the story of how I was washing my face and felt a bump on my jawline. I thought “omg is it a tumor?!” (side note: a friend of mine had a lump on his jawline and it turned out to be cancerous so that’s why I thought that).  Then I realized, nope, it’s just my jawbone, the double chin seemed to disappear overnight. I’m still a little freaked out when I feel that curve under my jawline.

I had another “didn’t recognize you” moment this week. I went to a meeting this week and saw someone who’s in the group who I hadn’t seen in about a month and a half. After the meeting I went over to say hi. He told me that when he first saw me walk in, he was wondering who I was. It wasn’t until after he saw my mom behind me that it hit him who I was. I told him that I saw the double take look on his face and was wondering what that was all about. We had a good laugh about it.

I did have someone say that they’re shocked that I talk about my weight loss so openly. I snapchat about it all the time. I say my weight..out loud. I am not embarrassed about it. It’s a fact and I’m proud of how far I’ve come. As a society, we’re taught that a lady never talks about her weight. Really?! I’ve learned not to be embarrassed about stuff like that. When we talk about things, sometimes people will tell you their experiences or have questions if they’re going through it too. We learn from each other. I’ve had people come up and ask about keto. If they’re interested, I point them to where I learned about it. I’ve also had some people give me ideas on how to better my keto recipes. It’s all about learning from each other and supporting each other.

Ok, time for the weigh in. I lost 1 pound this week but I have noticed a difference in my clothes. Everything fits looser. I bought a few shirts last week and a couple are too big already. Good thing they were only $5 each.  So I will take that 1 pound difference and take joy in the fact that physically I see a change for the better.

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 198

Total lost: 44 pounds!!



Drumroll please…199

199 is finally here!!! It’s been almost 2 weeks since I last posted and I was 202 then. I pretty much was stalled at 200 for the entire time. I just kept eating keto and had faith in the fact that it would happen. In the meanwhile, I could tell that I was losing inches because my clothes were getting looser. Have faith in the system.

199 is my first major goal in my journey. My next is 175, then 160, then it will go down 10 lbs every time because I know it will be harder as the number gets lower. I don’t know how low I want to go. I will be happy with 160. I never really liked it when I was below 135-140 when I was thinner. It was too thin. I’ll make that call when I get there. I’m older and I don’t know how 140 will look on my now.

My treat when I hit 199 was going to be a gluten free pizza but now I’ve changed my mind. I know that pizza will throw me out of ketosis. I’ve worked hard to stay in ketosis and it will take time to get back into it. Plus do I want to go through possible keto flu? No, no I don’t. Plus honestly, temptation isn’t there for it. I picked up a couple of pizzas for the kids and, while the smell was heavenly,  I wasn’t really tempted. I did snag a pepperoni from the top of it but then my stomach hurt afterwards. I forgot, cross-contamination. So that helps with “no temptation”.

We’re going on vacation in 2 weeks and I need to buy some pants because it’s going to be cold in Oregon compared to our heat here in Arizona. All my pants are way too baggy so shopping time. I bought 2 so far. I also bought a gorgeous dressy dress and a casual sleeveless dress. I haven’t worn dresses in at least a decade. I used to wear them all the time but they didn’t look good on me when I was overweight. Now, I am so rocking them. I also tried on a dress I bought last year. I saw it in the store and figured “if I ever lose the weight, it will look so good!”.  I put it on and it fit!! Then I had to go and buy shoes for the dresses. Always something.

So 1st major goal is met. Plus I met my May goal! Pretty dang proud of myself. Gonna ride this high for a while.

Starting weight: 242

Current weight: 199

Total lost: 43 lbs!!